im sitting here thinking about what i am about to do, im scared, nervous, i want to go and get this over with, but im don't want to leave my finance, my dog, my home. but this as to be done, i can not quit using heroin here, i always end up going to get some. so i have to leave, get this shit out of my head, my body, my soul. it's everywhere, my day rotates around geting this drug into what veins i can find. pathetic.